haiis...i dunno y todae ytd dae b4 that so depressed...i juz cant find a reason...i can find a wae to treason...i guess it's b'cos everything happens so fast...life seems meaning less...i feel my fwens drifting...i juz dunno where to start wif fixing...i cant seem to find the joy i had in music b4...i cant find the heart i had last time to study any more...it's like someone sold my heart on ebay or amazon and it got shipped to iceland or something...well obviously they didnt wrap my heart enough cuz i think my heart is gettin colder...how i wish someone can juz pierce it and let me sae goodnight one more time...i'm feeling the same as i did last yr 3rd december 6:34:36...all alone in the robotics room...raining outside air cold breathing smoke out...the world*robotics club* whirling around me...half the lights on...feeling lonely...it's weird la...it's like the world can busy as it gets but all u feel is loneliness...u can have fwens that sae they love u and will b wif u to the very end...but how can u prove it?U JUZ CANT PROVE IT...there's juz no wae...i juz feel my bones cranking up...heart feezing...world whirling by faster but all i can do is sit down...at most strum a few chords...most of the times i look to the bible for comfort...but this time...i juz cant find hope,love,faith,strenght ANYTHING in it...this verse alwaes cheers me up:

1 Corinthians 13
Love
1If I speak in the tongues[a] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,[b] but have not love, I gain nothing.

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

i juz cant find it anymore...it's juz zit nth...another thing that cheers me up is praying and it doesnt work...i cant actually type my prayer out becuz it's kinda personal...the other thing is composing sad songs and recording them...the play back makes me feel hella lot beta...not working...haiis...i know i shldnt burden all reading with this but well...like pr willy said bloggin is teraputic...it helps...*not helpin though* okae la i feel slightly beta la...but one thing that will cheer me up is people having faith in me that i cant heal myself and that god will lay his loving hand...juz dun try n cheer me up...not that u all suck at it...u all rock at it...it'z juz that this time...nahz..but thnx if u were thinkin so