i don't know why, suddenly, i love taking the camera and taking emo photos(or trying to)

and emo posts in chinese(i know my chinese sucks)

sorry if i act weird or be cold to you, not that you would care

especially since you pretend to like me anyway.

if you dislike me, just tell me. i want to know where i went wrong, even if i could never speak to you again.

anyway these few days i've been caught in a whirlwind of emotions. i don't know i just can't help it. don't bother trying to cheer me up, not that anyone would care, i'll just mask it to make you stop and you'll probably know that and just get more upset making me more upset so yea, never ending. i just sit in my corner everynight, listening to emo music, trying to make everything go away. i realise that i really need God. more than ever. because i realised, everytime i drift away from him, i walk out of that force field that protects me from everything. i don't know, i just don't. really. usually church would pull me back, make me reflect and realise something wrong with me. which is why i get emo in church. but no, it didn't happen today. i feel like i've lost life. sounds stupid, but you can't blame me. and if you can go ahead. not that anyone would bother.

whatever