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Monday, December 31, 2007

because as times go by
i'm standing here wondering why
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(part 2)
normally i'd be listening to music when i post,
this is too important.
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about today, movie with cousin and sis
cafe cartel
there was a black out which is kinda cool i guess
then sis lost a phone but some really nice dude picked it up and gave it to the counter
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2007 was a year that just walked by so quickly. i have so much that i have to give thanks for that i really don't know where to start. At the end of 2006. i told myself i would never get through sec1 life. a really close friend of mine told me to get that out of my mind and just pray. so i did. i prayed for my future friends, my future class, my future with existing friends, my new cca. everything. and most importantly, adapting to the new church environment. everything was simply so new, so unknown to me. it's like being placed in a corner of the desert, being told it was the middle, then asked to find a way out. i was terrified. i really had no idea what i was to do. i thank God for helping me and for putting friends beside me that helped me so much.

3rd december 2005 inevitably pops into mind, on this subject. it was the day the new phpps building was to be opened. i still can't shake the feeling from my mind till this day.
i was sitting on the table, beside the cold, frosted window of phpps robotics, thinking about what a great year it has been. yet i was afraid for the next year was to be psle. i looked out of the window for what felt like hours, hugging myself, being scarred. and lonely. and nostalgic. somewhat. yet i knew God was there to help me. along with my friends. it's a sad thing i'm not in contact with those friends back then now. so as i walked into HCI for the first day of the new life, for the first day that marked the beginning of a journey of uncountable hardships, yet so much joy. i had my sights, or what i thought was sights fixed on what i wanted, back then. it was the first day i was to meet my brothers who will not be forgotten forever. it was to meet the two teachers that i love and thank so much. i really just can't express how much gratitude i had for them. like the time Miss Tan falsely accused me. she really made me grow up. because of the disciplinary actions she wanted to implement, it made me really face up to it and really start thinking logically on how to prove her wrong. it was the harshes yet most effective welcome to the school. i love 1I. and i'm not afraid to say it. we were the qwerty-est class. we had the worst and the best. and those that people can't stand. we stood together through the thick and thin and the shawn. we all had our eyes fixed on the prize, yet we knew everyone else wanted it. we picked each other up when we fell, we celebrated together when we reached the top in the end.
i really do not know how to say or what to say to the 1I people.

I stepped into my second home on the 2nd of march. for the start of something incredible. that only the 4 of us, daryl, weijie, shungit and i can comprehend. robotics is a passion, something not many can understand. it was such a difficult 3 roads for us. the sleeplessnights. the 20 cans of coffee per night. the many times we wanted to just give up and cry, yet we held each other up. the many visits to the poolside, the many injuries. the times we got scolded yet stuck together. the times we totally destroyed everything. the times we all got down to cry because we knew it wouldn't last forever. the times we wiped the tears out of each others eyes then slapped each other in the face to get up and work. the many things i learnt.the 3 minutes of pure terror infront of that 30 people. when our hearts beat so heavily, yet it beat as once. how we woke each other up to recall everything. the glorious moments as a club, the darkest times when we failed so miserably. the times we were falsely accused. how we fought. the many holiday hours gone, for this one goal everyone goes for. there really isn't much to say for HCRC. except we kick ass.

I used to be a sunday christian. and i'm not afraid to say it because now i'm not. i thank Amanda, Chuan, Ely, Derrick and Rachel for that. before this year began, i did nothing in church, barely paid attention. and the Bible was a book at home like any other books, untouched. i didn't see the importance. until one day i was involved in SPY007. that turned my world upside down. more than anything else that happened this year. it simply reconstructed my spiritual life. i learnt to put my faith in God. i'm just super grateful to them for it.

but every year has its downfalls. and i'm just saying that i thank God for it. if not i wouldn't have learnt to treasure the 3 of them as much as i do now. and it has taught me to love others, despite the hate they have for me. although i'm still learning. i am on the right path.

overall 2007 was simply a great year. it goes beyond the mention of words to me. i just simply can't describe this year well enough. only the tears of pain suffering loneliness and joy can do that. not that i think anyone would have read till here, but then again i could read it a few years down. it has just been a year of so much change. so much growing up. yet realising how much there is left to do. i thank God for the many many many many blessings, the many many new friends i've made. how much i've gotten to learn to treasure my friends this year. just everything. simply for making it the most kick ass year ever, on every scale.

for 2008, it isn't going to get easier. there's gna be council more robotics madeness and just sec 2 life. then there's the complications socially to deal with. but i know that i have a backbone of God and friends and cousins to depend on. and i'm never letting anyone go. i'm not going to post my new year resolutions. because i believe that resolutions are easier said than done. but you damn well know i'm gna give it my best.
and to end off 2007, what better way then to go over the bible verse of the year again
I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.
(sorry for the horrible type of language and expression and mood of the post. i don't know what's getting into me these days.)

and so tonight as i gaze upon the starry starry night
tears roll down my eyes as i think of the next year
it's so much like the last time this came by,
yet completely different.

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