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Tuesday, December 04, 2007

what an amazing year.
so so much has happened,
both good and bad.
It seems like just yesterday that i stepped off the grounds of Pei Hwa.
As in really,
People always say oh like yea just yesterday,
Then everyone rolls their eyes.
But really. It honestly seems like it was just yesterday that we had graduation, ch6 performance, zhiyang singing when i stuck earplugs in. And the moment before i got back my results, how my heart pumped like never before. How i cried and how my heart ached when i missed the mark.

How i stepped into Hwa Chong for orientation not knowing anyone. How i started school and got punished for being late back from recess the first day by Mrs Ann, and how that turned out to be the best damn thing. How miss tan falsely acused me of lying. How the Shawn war began. How i began to love 1I. How i tried to defend them when miss Tan striked. How the time we spent together drew us so close. How the many lessons after lesson and lessons drew everyone tired. How we held ourselves up, together, because we are 1 class. How we lost Brian. How we helped each other out about it. How the many assemblies has changed everyone, for better and for worst. How i felt so emotionless, in a place filled with love. How i wanted to get into council so badly. How i tried and failed so many times but never gave up. How i got to where i am now. How Edwin tried to counsel me so many times but failed but didn't matter. How Kelvin pissed me off all the time but it's okay. How JunDa's been such an ass yet i love him so much. How i got humbled in robotics. How the many days staying back to clean the lab, and be bullied drew us closer. How Daryl's been so great a chairman. How ShunGit and Perry has helped me so much. How i feel so sorry for the way i treated them. How we're officially HCRC '07 and proud of it

How i met her and how my heart was torn in two. How he stayed over and we wrote that one cursed song that sounds so horrible but makes me feel so content. The sleepless nights all just for projects day. the many cuts that still leave scars on my hands from all that project work. The night we slept over for NJRC. How i finally made friends from church who i love and depend on so so much. How i decided to serve. How i was so worried for EOYS. How i felt so relieved the day eoys ended.

How i wanted to spend so much time with RX Chuan Elysha and Derrick. How we partied hard at LP live. How i got pissed at him for going out on the 2nd day of stay over. How we stayed through the night talking, watching movies, enjoying each other's company. eating awesome food together. How we recorded that song together. How i feel guilty about being a perfectionist. How robocup made me a living dead panda and how it opened my eyes. how for the first time in a really long time i felt so loved that thursday. How he left that friday, which left a crater in me. How it made me realise that i love them simply too much to express it. How it evoked nostalgia within me. How i realised they'll always be there for me. How i built 301107. How i feel guilty about the year and how i treated Twinnie. How i wish i could take so many things back from everyone. How bad of a person i've been, How bad of a Christian, i've been. How i want to try so hard to repent, but can't. But through Christ who gives me strength, i can.

And finally, how i got so much closer to God. how much i realised i really need him. and how much He really loves me.

How there is simply too much to write it all out. How there are so many more people i would like to mention, but can't. How i wish i could thank and say sorry to everyone. How thinking about everything that has happened, and posting about it, 使我眼泪不禁掉得桌子都是。我这么说才行，我爱你们

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