and we're drifting like nobody's buisness.
all you can say is you don't care.
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i don't know why i'm feeling this way. i don't know why i should feel this way. well yea, there isn't a reason for it. and yet i'm dying inside. no one has seen it, no one will see it. i guess that's good. you ask me to let you help me. i'm sorry i was so mean, but i really don't want to get anyone involved. i'm already hurting too many people, including myself. i don't want this to spread. i tried the happyonlyposts approach, it died after 2 weeks. well at least it lasted 2 weeks la. it sucks to be in a boys only school. okay most of the time at least. i feel so lost from emotions, i can feel my eq just drop out of the sky. i'm not supposed to be acting this way. inevitably i ask myself if this is the true me, and that caring for others was just some lie i put up. i mean, why do i have to give a damn about people crying 5/6 hrs a day. argh i don't know. okay just dao this. i'm missing like everyone. i have no idea why. i can like, get off the phone with so and so and go, dang i miss so and so. i don't even know what i'm talking about. argh whatever.