because my mind has lost direction

imagine this: you're a pillar of one. a solid pillar with hard walls that people bang into everyday. you keep the building up you're proud you're a supporter and yet a leader. you stood there from the day you were made with pride and dignity. suddenly someone bangs into you your world changes the sky turns dark the building starts to colaspe you try to hold it up, hold it up with all your might but it's crushing down on you you clench your fist your inner concrete turns to liquid you cry and you tear inside the world's coming down on you you can't take it anymore but you're rooted to the ground you must stay there you make the choice to stay and try and you try and fail and try and fail and you just want to give up but you can't move a feet you break down you're scared you're angry you don't know what's going on anymore you try to ask for help but no one listens it starts to rain, yes, water, i'm thirsty to find it's salt water and it hurts your dry tongue you suffer even more you wish you could take your life but something's pulling you back you don't know what to do you wish someone could help you you look everywhere but there isn't a person

i need you.

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