my insides all turn to ash, on a valentines day.

today. um, i don't know why, but i think i'm emo like crap mainly because of the sleep depervation. 3am last night, 4+ the night before. the night before, no sleep woohoo. i don't know. like, seeing nic again today, although i didn't really get the chance to talk to her and stuff, and like hanging with hsien. it made me realised just how much i really freaking miss camp. everyone's probably going diao now because camp passed so long ago and it's all memories now, but i don't know. seeing them again made me realised that i've been missing camp more and more and more everyday since it ended. it's just that the stress level has been going up, just nice to cover it. i don't know. sorry for the daoism hsien.