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Saturday, February 09, 2008

WARNING: THE FOLLOWING MAYBE RIDICULOUSLY RANDOM AND EMO TO SOME, OR MOST. EITHER WAYS PLEASE DO NOT READ PAST THIS LINE.

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it's 4:12 now. it's late. this is making me remember alot of things. camp was awesome, and i don't know why i still miss it like crazy. i also missed the silly days where me and amanda tried to stay up all the way and i failed miserably and got pwned by her. i miss that day where i stayed up to build 311107 and comfort chuan, or tried to. okay actually it was more like dao no dao dao no dao but whatever. i miss the days of psle where ruixiong stayed overnight, and we mugged the night away. i miss the other days with him, jamming. haha do you remember that silly song we composed, tell me why. tell me why i'm not your valentine. which makes me remember, valentine's day is coming up. hope chuan & ely are free/willing to go out like on that day or something, just for the fun of it. i'm sick and tired of this dull dull life. (no offence) but i don't wanna be the next kah how. good in acads, super discipline but miserable social life. i hate this, why did you have to migrate. why did you have to meet her and alter the course of time. why did you get drawn to her ;D. why did i cry when you leave and yet not care about you leaving. observe the piercing silence. argh screw life. (the following is super random and uncalled for and diao and poser/attention seeking of me but everything changes at 4:29)

amanda, you are seriously one of a kind. like, i don't think i'll ever find another you. you're always the one that never fails to find a moral of the story to cheer me up. okay, so you can be quite dao and stone at times(which really is my fault since i'm always bugging and disturbing you) but i really really do love you. i don't know, like everyone else mentioned has like, stuff that can be mentioned. but for you, i don't know. you just completely changed my life. you turned me out of a sunday Christian and completely changed my perspective of life. if you ever have any problems or like troubles, i'm open. thank you.

chuan, thanks for always being there for me. it's like everytime you comfort me in one way or another through whatever problems, i stop and think. like, why can't i ever comfort you back. i mean, like it should work both ways. i think. anyway just want to say you're one of the most awesome person i've ever met. i only wish that i could help you back, the way you help me. i get this feeling that we're drifting. rapidly. maybe it's just me, maybe it isnt. i don't know. either ways i hope that we'd be friends forever. like, yea. grah i just don't know how to spell it out about how much i love and treasure you.

derrick(the duckie). you're the closest dude friend i know, even though we haven like spoken in decades. okay shit i feel super out of place and whodoyouthinkyouare-ish. but whatever. it's like, you're always there for me. and like chuan, i find it hard to be there for you back. you helped me with the sec sch life adapting, the rx problem and like so many other problems. and you're like a musical inspiration. i just wish we could hang out more. actually i wish i could like, hang out. like yea, with everyone. can't find time, argh you're to blame nat, you're to blame. thank you

darius. haha you're like the guy i've been sleeping with for the longest time (okay sounds uber wrong)but yea. ever since i was like 4, or 5. you were my bigger brother. always looking out for me and all. and i know you won't read this. but like as much as we're drifting due to age now, i really do love and treasure you too.

elysha, well okay first of all, don't bother about him. anyway um, i don't know. like you're the most musical person i've ever met. and a damn well good singer too. and like you're funny (whacky,insane. those types) and you're going to australia soon. you were the first person back then who really drove the message in that i had to believe that i could do something, before i can do it. and i guess you're the reason why i'm in hwachong(suffering) right now. it's a good thing though. i don't really know how to say it la. you're completely insane, 1 of a kind and i really love you and will still do when you're like miles away.

eehsien, it's been 12/13 days since i've like, known you and yet i feel that you mean so much to me and we've gone through so much. i don't know. you have to take care of yourself, don't let bastards put you down. i really hope this friendship goes on for a really long time to come. thanks for all your comforting and complains about dale in camp. i'm here for you. haha

jerald the whackiest dude i know (sorry elysha, you're the 2nd whackiest DUDE). also the guy i've been sleeping with for life. you know, honestly you're in inspiration to me. like you're so freaking sucessful. and the facade you put up all the time is so strong. it's difficult to follow in your footsteps but i want to be there one day. the leadership, the MUSICALITY, just, you. your style, your ability to stand out from the rest without caring. i love you alot cuzzie, really do.

jamie, thanks for all the emo talk before, you know, with everything going on, just, thanks. alot. for everything. grah i have so many 'don't know what to says' but yea. just, thanks alot. love you.

nicolette, haha i miss your feet and your head. anyway um, yea just like hsien, i've only know you for 12/13 days but i feel so close to you. maybe it's the emoing in camp. or the falling asleep while waiting for cross dorm (sorry!). but like, i don't know. it's amazing how this works. but anyway, thanks for all your emoing along with in camp, the flagpole area, your head which, come to think about it, i'm starting to miss it along with your really nice feet. (wei yi chen so has to send me those pictures. argh.)but um, yea i just miss you alot, even though i just spoke to you like 5 hours ago. if you ever need me, like amidst the stress and troubles, i'm here. and i hope this will be the beginning of a super long and nice friendship. love you.

peng ning, congrats you're the only 2I dude that's up. well okay, first of all thanks for the awesome monitoring last year and this year. thanks for being there for me when i emo, knocking boy sense into me and um, yea thanks for pwning me in acads to make me work harder. thanks for totally pangsehing me on first night of camp, and like not waking me up on the second night. i really hope we get into the same class next year and all. you'll never be forgotten

perry, you ang mor looking hardworking SLCOT faggot. thanks for well okay first of all, robotics. thanks for all the encouragement last year during NJRC stay over. y'know during FLL for pangseh-ing. all the competitions really. thanks for just being there, helping out, accompanying, the listening ear. not like SOME PEOPLE. but yea, jia you for SLC. we have another 4 3/4 years together (if you don't quit robotics which you better not or i'll have your xiao bai lian on my desk)

ruixiong, okay despite all the bullcrap that has happened, i really really miss you. there really isn't much to say because everything's already engraved forever. you'll always remain.

there, i'm done. i know it's super gay and poser and lame and all, but whatever. it's how i feel. take me as you find me. andd yes. 5:30 now. gah i just miss having a life. so much.

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